I cannot hold this anymore

My hands are tired of only waiting to let go
And I am waiting.. still
I used to know witch way to turn
You were a light inside a tunnel in my head
I try to follow.. still.

It's hard to see you,
we are older now
And when I found you
you just turn around
This is a black and white of you I found
I hang you up and the I pull you down.

No more apologies for me
My arms are tired of picking up what I put down
You're all I think of.. still.
I'm gonna miss you everyday
I turn my back on everyone who wont believe
And it gets lonely..still.
I get lost sometimes.
Another year flies bies
But I know If I try
Memories of the light in your eyes
Can take me back in time

I don't hear music anymore
My ears are tired of all the pictures in the words
Cause you are in them.. still.